Hearthstone is an online card game based off the likeness and characters from the video game World of Warcraft.
I have spent the most money and time on hearthstone out of any video game in my lifetime.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to spend my freetime excessively on watching people playing hearthstone when there are productive tasks I could be doing such as writing self forgiveness, using Techno Tutor, and studying Desteni related material.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the idea of giving up playing and watching hearthstone to focus on optimizing my free time in a more effective way that will pay off more in terms of me being happier and more effective in my life by perfecting myself whereas I'm not being perfected while watching or playing hearthstone
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not address my relationship to Hearthstone in seeing and recognizing that it is my largest by far time consumer of my free time and so the biggest obstacle in my way of changing who I am to be more disciplined and spend my free time in a way that will better serve me.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not consider that although I enjoy watching hearthstone and playing the hearthstone card game spending my time in this way to the excess that I do does not reward me or make me happy to do more with my life in the long term and only stands as a quick fix to zone out and be entertained watching all the different characters of the playing cards interact with each other
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear taking the step of reducing and ultimately abandoning my hobby of watching and playing hearthstone to instead focus as much of my free time as possible on productive and more rewarding activities that serve my self perfection/self development.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use hearthstone as an escape from reality to not think about work and responsibility and to not have to consider the consequences and outflows of how I spend my time and what my time each moment is adding up to and creating.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel hurt and betrayed at the idea of my hobby of this card game being taken away from me.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not gift myself with the replacement of this hobby being the hobby of totally embracing real life challenges and real life responsibility and obligations and growing through totally engaging with reality for what it is and what is required of me within it apposed to staying stagnant playing card games.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not limit my time that I spend playing and watching hearthstone to slowly develop discipline in my time utilization to eventually reach a point where I am capable of forgoing hearsthone in my life completely.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define who I am in this lifetime by spending my free time on a video game that doesn't serve any purpose other than entertainment and suppression of stress and anxiety.
When and as I see myself not balancing my free time in a way where I'm pushing myself to improve as much as possible without burning myself out, I stop, I breathe, I realize that my time outside of work is limited and by the time that my weekend is over I'll be back to work feeling like I wasted my free time and am stuck in the cycle of going to work, then getting out of work and suppressing my stress and anxiety with video games and never breaking out of the cycle, thus, I commit myself to challenge myself to keep pushing myself to effectively spend my free time on productive constructive activities that support me to change instead of suppressing the things I don't want to face then simply ending up at work again not having changed myself with the free time I had to do so.
I commit myself to work towards quitting Hearthstone completely.
