Day 392- failing my wife

 I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not cconsider how I would effectively build a future for me and my wife.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame my wife for getting in the way of us creating a future. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not be self honest about the state of the economy and what is required to be successful and actually have a real future with someone in the current cuworld. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not spend more time figuring out and applying myself in relationship to making money and managing and investing money for me and my wife. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe in my mind that evwerything would magically fall into place and that I wouldn't have to really consider the reality of the money seituation and how much is required of a man to be successful and to provite for his wife in the current world systemm.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not stand as a man for me and my wife to be strong and provitde and do what is required.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame the system as being a bully standing in my way of acheiveing what I wnat for me and my wife. 

I forgive myself that I have ac epted and allowed myself to not find any ways of making money to support my wife and our dreams even if I do not like the forms of comepition in relationship to making money in the system.

I forgive myself that I have accepted nd allowed myself to not compete in the system for making money as a required part of success and thriving in the system is demanded that you compete with others in the system as it is designed. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not chhallenge the system despite needing to particpate3 in the system to make money and procitede for my wife. 

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to not trust that in using my tools and other means of self application and community that I can support myself to be my best version of myself who can fiht in the system to amek money in a reasonable way so that I can support me and my wife and make a faimly and have babies. 

I commit myself to be strong and apply myself and to figure out how to make as mich money as possible to support me and my wife to be able to have babies and to be a man who can be relied on to make the best for myselfa dd my wife and the world. 

Day 391- Job and body pain

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel worried that my body will become overwhelmed with work.

I forgive myself that I avve accepted and allowed myself to fear my body not being able to stay strong for me to do the physical work I need to do to make money.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not focus on my self care to support me to do the work I need to do to provitde for myself and achieve my goals. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to abuse my body by not being in a heqlthy caring rleaitonhsip with my boyd. 

I forgive myself mysefl that I have accepted and allowed myself to abuse my body by not checking in with my body and getting in touch with my body and what it needs to succeed. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be evil in relationship to my body causing my body to suffer and be abused by my mind which I have crated and enforded onto the flesh. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to put myself in a position where I must abuse my body to work and to make money through abusing my bflesh whcih is inivitable. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not consider that I am abusing my body and my flesh no matter what I do in each moment I am in a constant state of self abuse. 

I commit myself to keep pushing myself to do the work I need to do to make the money I need to support myself and to achieve my goals regardless of how my body suffer as I realize I must spend time and application to correct and suport my relationship to my obdy to make things better. 

I commit myself to take better care of my self and my body moving foreard.