Day 438- Sharing the breathing process

I was told that I'm not effective at teaching the point of breath, 

I reached a point in focusing on breath and in applying it as a word into a word flashing technology, in a pyramid structure called pyramid building,

due to that extensive practice on focusing and applying myself here within breath and advanced vocabulary building around the word I am able to live here as the word breath in every waking moment, 

Yet, that is not satisfactory to me when I cannot convey it to others effectively, I am not content with simply of and as myself alone being competent at breathing where I cannot share this with others it is an obvious common sense issue and limits my capacity to live and express myself where I am not standing equal to others within and as breath and the education thereof, 

It is not that I should want to teach it or not, or feel shame or pride in teaching it or not, it is that there is common sense equality issues where I cannot walk equally with others if I cannot share and convey this point to them, 

For me, I used the very point of breath to in fact create this dilemma, I used breath to circumvent other aspects of my life and process and so created more inequality as friction in myself form other parts of myself, breath should be used to support and group and expand yourself in your life and living not used to narrow yourself down and suppress your living. 

What is breathing for if not living, and what is living if not giving, 

To give others the greatest capacity to live, 

To live to give, how do I share what I abused and took for granted for so long? 

Starting with forgiveness to clear the path forward, that I didn't ever want to share or teach I wanted to dominate and to take to elevate myself over others, 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to develop myself within breath from a position of superiority, 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not share my process effectively with others due to participating in competition in superior and inferior that I needed in my mind to be superior because I felt inferior to others and needed something special that gave me an edge and an advantage in the game of life as a competition to be won. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel guilty that in remaining trapped in cycles of superiority and inferiority that I have not moved myself effectively, and what I have lived was not really lived and that life starting from me was diminished because I participated in a process of abuse as winning and losing as a hierarchy of power. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not clear my starting point and want to remain hidden in my self agenda ego complexity of hierarchy 'higher air'. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that what I developed as breath was superior when who I was within it was making myself higher in the hierarchy through air as arrogance. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not humble myself and ground myself to coming back to process as a journey one and equal breath by breath developing self to become what's best for self as all as self as one and equal not as a game of winners and losers in energy addiction. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not come back to sharing myself and my process of breath of which I can be mistaken and learn and grow through giving and sharing relentlessly as who I am, 

When and as I see myself holding the point of breath as a belief system that I am higher in the hierarchy of high air as arrogance when I am living breath, I stop, I breathe, I realize that I cannot share that which I attempt to take at the same time taking breath for granted, thus, I commit myself to share the process of breath not to take others breath away, but to give them breath to elevate all through air shared.