Day 357- Self conscience paranoia

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I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear others being able to see into me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear others being able to see my consquences.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel uncomfortable suspecting everyone to be able to see into me to one degree or another and being able to see where I'll stand or fall or anything about me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear others picking on me where they can see my vulnrabilities when in reality no one points anything out to me and let's me handle things on my own unless there's something very serious needing serious adressal to support me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hate the support system of other people being able to see me as themselves and being able to refrence me with themselves and point out diffrences in me with them to support me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel inferior to others who I suspect being able to see things in me that I want to hide and keep away from anyone else seeing.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blow my issues and problems out of proportion by hiding and supressing them to protect me from others isntead of simply adressing what are actually simple points that would be better forgiven then supressed and hidden.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hide away from other people instead of utilizing them as a mirrior into myself where each person is someone I can look into myself at from a diffrent point of view.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to compare myself to others instead of using them to look at myself from a diffrent persepctive as who am I as an old person, who am I as a women, who am i in relationship to an animal.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into opinion of I don't like that person, isntead of seeing it as I don't like who I am as that person, I don't like who I am in relationship to that person.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into fear of they can see the truth of me, insetad of I can see the truth of me through them as a mirrior.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hate having to question who I am accepting and allowing of myself through others.

I commit myself to stop fearing others being able to see into me.

I commit myself to breathe and shift into I see me through others.

Day 356- Channeled message from the owl

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https://eqafe.com/p/channeled-message-from-the-owl-part-1

The owl in the interview said that human beings are creating consequences for nature. So then I write out my reaction to this as my starting point to create clarity without reaction so I can see how to move forward in my life after finding out what's happening on earth because of humans as myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my responsability to correct myself as a human being.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear questioing what choice I have then to become the best I can through process after seeing what's happening with nature beyond what I can see for myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel guilty for thinking that nature will just have to deal with human consquences and it's not my problem.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel guilty for not bettering myself for life and nature more effectively and consistently with the tools I've had.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to justify me not using the tools I have as effectively as possible to change myself in relationship to life and nature.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel guilty being alive knowing that I cannot immidetely correct myself and will inevitably continue to contribute to abuse while working towards change in my self thorugh my tools.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hide from the serious nature of consquences I see in watching the interview with owl by supressing myself into complacity and giving up.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that what's happening on earth doesn't concern me if I'm not aware of it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being responsible for the issues and problems with my own libing and behaviours I've created over time.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to further compromise myself by going into panic racing thoughts of 'I need to change right now to fix things on my end'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not be practical as seeing the infromation as supporting my comprehension of why I need to walk process and at what pace is needed and appropriate to push myself as hard as possible without overwhelming myself to a point of self defeatism.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as a human being as bad for not exsisting and living in way that supports what's best for life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel overwhelmed that my goal for my process shouldn't be to just take care of myself before I die but also do better for nature and others.

When and as I see myself feeling guilty for my contribution to the massive abuse occuring on earth as myself as a human, I stop, I breathe, I realize that the guilt is a distraction causing even futher abuse and no ansers, thus, I commit myself to breathe and to focus on pushing my writing and application in process further to actually figure out what I'm going to do and how I'm going to write out and change for myself instead of going into guilt and self defeatism without adressing the actual infromation presented by the owl in the interview.

Day 355- Stomache

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I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hate seeing the physical consquences of my actions within my own body.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel annoyed with physical discomfort in my body instead of appreciating it and looking into everything it represents.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame my stomache saying 'why don't you get your act together you're the only thing holding me back from being physically very pleased and comfortable to just exsist'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel ashamed of what I feel moving in my stomache as discomfort.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to be better then discomfort inside of my own stomache.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to try to force myself to work past my stomache issues instead of simply working with them and achnoleging that I have something coming up in my stomache that clearly needs to be adressed.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to try to override what my stomache is trying to show me by working out to try to trim the fat off my stomache so that I can just dismiss whatever I'm feeling in my stomache as if losing weight is something I can just immidetely do without still being stuck with the feeling for as long as it takes to lose weight assuming that losing weight would even be a solution.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feeling high strung trying to override what my stomache is showing me instead of working with it in a way I can operate more smoothly internally.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define slowing down to adress my body as my stomache as dimnishing to my process as if my process has nothing to do with how I physically feel at all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel helpless within the deliberate action of breathing and slowing down to be able to open up and adress what's in my stomache.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear what's in my stomache bringing up things in me that will make it clear that I need to change in certain ways.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not accept responsability for the creation process occuring within and as whatever is moving inside of my stomache which is cleary energetic of something I've done and created over time as myself as energetic mind stuff.

When and as I see myself refusing to slow down and adress what is rising up within and as me as my stomache, I stop, I breathe, I realize that in trying to overpower my own stomache and dismiss what my stomache is brining up I am creating the opposite of what I mean to create in overriding my stomache and will be forced to adress what I need to adress which my stomache was showing me one way or another, thus, I commit myself to breathe and to slow down to bring awareness to my stomache when I see something out of alignment moviign as energy moving within my stomache.

Day 354- New Problems

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I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge my life as better now because I have 'better' problems then in the past.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge my new issues in life as easier to adress then my past issues in life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as being in a better position to deal with my problems I have now then how I was with my problems in the past.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge my life as better now because I expereince less intense problems in life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to build myself up to be doing so great and able to handle so much more without actually looking into how I handle things now.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as not having changed at all and simply not having the same problems I had externally from the past.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear simply supressing the impact of my old problems and replacing them with new problems which I'm equally numb and desensatised to.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear simply being desensatied to things more and simply not caring or willing to adress things as much.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as not deserving to have fewer issues in my life then in the past.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as not having worked and applied myself hard eough to have been able to move past my old problems and have new problems which aren't as intense.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear old problems in myself reappearing and having to start all over from scratch in relationship to them if they do come back up in a more or equal powerful intensity as in the past.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear simply tricking myself to believing that I have everything under control in my life now.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to race forward and gain more stability and footing in my life so I can squash out my older issues which have brought me the most suffering all at once to no longer have to deal with or assossiate with them.

When and as I see myself judging myself or talking myself up as being so much better then any other time in my life, I stop, I breathe, I realize it's not a matter of convincing myself that all is well and down hill from here but simply living and applying in each breathe taht which has supposebly brought me to the position I seem to see myself in, thus, I commit myself to keep applying myself as I am as how I've gotten to a position where I can do more with less consquences to my wellness and health.

Day- 353- Catfish

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I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear getting catfished on the internet. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear people messing with me on the internet with fake profiles. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge tricking someone on the internet as being something that puts you in a position of blame. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to refuse to humble myself to getting fooled by someone on the internet. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear what I thought was real that I was expereinving talking to someone on the internet was all fake. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel annoyed that someone would mess with me on the internet for not good reason. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel ashamed for someone who would catfish me on the internet. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge someone who would catfish me on the internet as less then myself. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel angry I can relate to the nerve of messing with other people out of selfishenss in myself. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that the fantasy I was presented through someone on the internet was actually never real. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear having to continue with my life in a much harsher reality then the nice reality I was presneted thorugh the internet. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame someone else on the internet when I built up my own fantasies assuming I'd be able to actualize them at some point without considering my accountability to fantasy. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear getting catfished on the internet being a rude wake up to what reality really is. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel like getting catfished was a big deal when it didn't affect me in any way but positivey helping me to face myself in a new way. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that i"m beyond getting catfished on the internet. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe i'm too clever to be fooled by someone on the internet. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel confused that the person on the internet seemed to be real and came at the good time for me. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel depressed discoering that the person on the itnernet was not who they appeared to be. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel sad that I thought I could have the relationship I always wanted but it was not a real person. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not knowing when such an oppritunity for myself will ever come again to be in the relationship I'd like to have with someone else. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel depressed having to go back to working up my relationship with myself alone. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to emotionally attach myself to the fantasy of being in relationship with another person. 

WHen and as I see myself feeling depressed about getting catfished on the internet by a fake profile, I stop, I breathe, I realize that reacting to a situation doeesn't mean that things are actually bad or hopeless but that I'm not directing myself and creating myself from within the situation to make the best of things due to instead reacting, thus, I commit myself to breathe, and to keep working on my self growth in process regarldess of if people on the internet are who they say they are or not. 

I commit myself to stop depending my development on being in a great relationship with someone else. 

Day 352

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I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to imagine things beyond the physical.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to try to figure things out beyond what's in front of me in my imagination.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear facing all my ideas about things beyond what's in front of me in my eyes and mind as having nothign to do with what's really going on.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel inferiror to things beyond my mind and eyes/vision.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel infeiror to things beyond my awareness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to worry about things beyond my immidete awareness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel qurious of things beyond my awareness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feear missing out on something if I only work with what's in my immidete awareness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear I'm not correct in my living in terms of dimensions occuring out of my awareness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel like I need to compete with things which exsist out of my immidete awareness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear things out of my awareness catching me off guard.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to escape to palces outside of my actual breathing awareness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel infeiror to what other people are capable of beyond my own awareness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear I need to be aware of things beyond my current awareness for my own development.

When and as I see myself imagining things beyond my awareness, I stop, I breathe, I realize that projecting what is happening outside of what I'm aware is happening in my world and universse and exsistace is not supporting me for my personal goals and development, thus, I commit myself to breathe and to not project imagination and ideas about what's occuring beyond my awareness.

I commit myself to shape and create understanding of what is happeing outside of my awareness without projecting images, opinions, and personal ideas about it.

I commit myself to check and question my concepts of what is happeing outside of my awarness to make sure I'm not drifting off into my own imagination projections about reality.

Day 351- control

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I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myseld to convince myself I have too much to sort out, out of fear.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear I have too much to sort out based on a reaction.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go from thinking I have everything sorted out to thinking I've got nothing sorted out based on fear reacrions.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to feel like I am in total control of everything.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear I've lost control to manage Everything when I go into an negative emotional state.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hope that I'll regain my sense of control over everything.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to get arragant that I've got everything figured out.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear what will happen if I don't regain my sense of control over everything.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe my external world is controlled by my internal world.

I commit myself to breathe when I feel out of control.

I commit myself to breathe when I feel in control.