Day 303- unsettled

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I feel like it's extremely hard for me to settle in within myself.

My mind is always buzzing, I always have some energy that's unsettled some thought I can't unstuck.

It just takes a lot of work to perfect yourself to be able to get to that point where you can just settle into yourself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to settle into myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to settle into myself and have that comfort and intamacy within myself where the desire doesn't help me develop what I'm looking for.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to just be settled in already where it takes tons of time and effort.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to appreciate how once I am firm in my living in relationship to settling in and being comfortable in my body that I'll be able to stay there and mnatsin that once I'm there.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear I don't have enough energy to keep going to keep trying to stabilize myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to settle in more then what I can move and direct myskrf into expressing where if I'm suddenly relaxed and settled in I'll know if it's for real or not by seeing what's moving within myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not be self honest about why I can't just settle in and be comfortable with myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be angry that I can't settle in but don't open up why I'm unable to settle in.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame something outside of myself where I want to settle in but can't so it must be some external issue.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not want to admit that I'm basically bullying myself where I'm constantly putting myself under too much pressure for me to eve, r settle in and just be relaxed and present.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to constantly force myself out of alignment within myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to manipulate myself that I can't just settle in and enjoy being.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as not good enough to just be and exsist within my own body.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hate using those owrds when it's true to how I treat myself there's no reason I shouldn't be able to just settle in and be calm and realx but I don't let myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience myself as fighting myself to settle in and enjoy just being where who else would I be fighting but myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear opening up that mean side of myself where I have to open it up to then be able to be at peace and just settle in with myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be neglectful of myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not nurture and take care of myself that I would then trust myself to be at ease with myself.

When and as I see myself fearing never being able to settle into myself and be comfortable and directive, I stop, I breathe, I realize this is something I've never given never created for myself, thus, I commit myself to take care of myself and nurture myself so that I can then settle in and be comfortable with myself.