Day 434- Speaking as knowledge and information

 I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to diminish my living of communication when I speak aloud.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to actually communicate less effectively when I am speaking my words aloud.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to harbor so much knowledge and information that when I speak, I am actually communicating and sharing less effectively than if I were to simply be in silence within my own word as life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to assume that speaking aloud is good without any methodology of ensuring and cross referencing that the words coming out of my mouth are living words not just words with a mind consciousness agenda. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear having to reteach myself how to speak words.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have taken my ability to communicate my words aloud for granted as assumed good and useful and proper.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not filter and challenge and equation every single word that comes out of my mouth spoken aloud.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to speak my words from the mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to abuse life with my words spoken aloud not representing me as life but representing the systems of the mind being allowed to speak on my behalf.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself ton t question if any word I have ever spoken was a real living word or simply information meaningless and void without regard for life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear having to create a new language as a language of living words.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not ensure that I am living the words as I am speaking words so that I can cross reference myself while I am speaking the words aloud.

When and as I see myself speaking as knowledge and information without life as substance, I stop, I breathe, I realize that entirely rewriting my language into a living word language and to be living words as I speak words is totally contradictory to what has been permised and allowed in the system up to this junction, thus, I commit myself to take on the greatest and most rewarding challenge in all of exsistence to rewrite the human language starting with myself as a living word language, I commit myself to be living my words as I am speaking my words.

I redefine language as a set of codes and symbols meant to be used to project and create an idea into substance.