Day 392- failing my wife

 I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not cconsider how I would effectively build a future for me and my wife.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame my wife for getting in the way of us creating a future. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not be self honest about the state of the economy and what is required to be successful and actually have a real future with someone in the current cuworld. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not spend more time figuring out and applying myself in relationship to making money and managing and investing money for me and my wife. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe in my mind that evwerything would magically fall into place and that I wouldn't have to really consider the reality of the money seituation and how much is required of a man to be successful and to provite for his wife in the current world systemm.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not stand as a man for me and my wife to be strong and provitde and do what is required.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame the system as being a bully standing in my way of acheiveing what I wnat for me and my wife. 

I forgive myself that I have ac epted and allowed myself to not find any ways of making money to support my wife and our dreams even if I do not like the forms of comepition in relationship to making money in the system.

I forgive myself that I have accepted nd allowed myself to not compete in the system for making money as a required part of success and thriving in the system is demanded that you compete with others in the system as it is designed. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not chhallenge the system despite needing to particpate3 in the system to make money and procitede for my wife. 

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to not trust that in using my tools and other means of self application and community that I can support myself to be my best version of myself who can fiht in the system to amek money in a reasonable way so that I can support me and my wife and make a faimly and have babies. 

I commit myself to be strong and apply myself and to figure out how to make as mich money as possible to support me and my wife to be able to have babies and to be a man who can be relied on to make the best for myselfa dd my wife and the world. 

Day 391- Job and body pain

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel worried that my body will become overwhelmed with work.

I forgive myself that I avve accepted and allowed myself to fear my body not being able to stay strong for me to do the physical work I need to do to make money.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not focus on my self care to support me to do the work I need to do to provitde for myself and achieve my goals. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to abuse my body by not being in a heqlthy caring rleaitonhsip with my boyd. 

I forgive myself mysefl that I have accepted and allowed myself to abuse my body by not checking in with my body and getting in touch with my body and what it needs to succeed. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be evil in relationship to my body causing my body to suffer and be abused by my mind which I have crated and enforded onto the flesh. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to put myself in a position where I must abuse my body to work and to make money through abusing my bflesh whcih is inivitable. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not consider that I am abusing my body and my flesh no matter what I do in each moment I am in a constant state of self abuse. 

I commit myself to keep pushing myself to do the work I need to do to make the money I need to support myself and to achieve my goals regardless of how my body suffer as I realize I must spend time and application to correct and suport my relationship to my obdy to make things better. 

I commit myself to take better care of my self and my body moving foreard. 

Day 390- Sacrifice

 I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to belive that I need go sacrifice anything to be the best version of myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to deny myself what I want which is go be the best version of kysmyself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not consider that I get to be exactly what I want which is who I am which is to do what is best of rall of life together one and equal.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to belive that self forfciness has given me the edge on anyone at all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to belive that Techno Tutor has given me the edge on anyone at all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to belive that knowledge and information has gicne me then edge on anyone at all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not be humbled yo get to give my life as the sacrifice to what is best for all in each breath in each moment to build a life that will be eternal for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel intimidated by my uncertainty and uncaring over the nature of reality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not be inspired by seeing that there us no viliian outside of myself and who I am as original sin in the flesh.

I commit myself tosacrifixe myself as life here in each breath to give my life go all as one and equal as seeing who I am as original sin and who I must be as the correction thereof.

I commit myself to begin my life anew. 

I commit myself toforgice myself not because others are bad or evil or wrong, but to see who u truly am as what is best for all life as one and equal where the only enemy is the separation as can be seen within the mind itself.

Day 389- fucking up is success.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being in a position where I cannot see a way forward for me besides selling Techno Tutor.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not broaden my conception of what Techno Tutor is and how to sell it through my own life and living.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself TT I to fear that I am Un certain of how I will make my money for myself and Kasha moving forward.

I forgive myself myself I have accepted and allowed myself to belive that I am free when I cannot even support my wife financially to build the future I would like to be a part and legacy of.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame others for me feeling raped.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to belive that anyone would desire to tape me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that I actually need to physically sell Techno Tutor to people when they might already have Techno Tutor for all I know.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame myself for the entire world government and all of existence collapsing in all on one point at one moment. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel stressed that I have crippled myself and actuallyfeel like I have cancer.

I forgive myself that I gave accepted and allowed myself to fear actually having rectal cancer.

When and as I see myself fearing I will fuck up the entire existence if I keep fucking up, I stop, I breathe, I realize that my next moment and my next box I might be living out of may nit be entirely up to me to have as much free choice as I belive, thus, I commit myself to accept the karma of my situation and to focus on what I can do for myself in each breathe and each moment to forgive myself for the abuse I have caused myself and blamed myself for.

Day 388 - Retarded

 I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to liberally use the word retarded.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to abuse the word retarded as myself speaking the word by calling tings reatarded but not knowing the definition.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to throw around the word retarded without figuring out what it means effectively.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to abuse myself by not supporting myself to have a good vocabulary and to be certain and clear with what words like retarded mean in the dictionary. 

I commit myself to look up lwords in the dictionary to become more effective at understanding who I am and the words that I am speaking and why I speak them and what the mean. 

Day 387- Who is doing their self forgiveness?

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to assume that other people need go be doing their self forgiveness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to belive that other people are not doing their self forgiveness when I do not know who is familiar with self forgiveness or not.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not consider that not everyone can be given self forgiveness in its perfect writing form because it requires a difficult course that not everyone just yet can fit into.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to wish I could give other people self forgiveness when shojtin at them about self forgiveness is not effective.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire other people to have self forgiveness so that my life would be easier.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself go not consider how important and valuable self forgiveness is.

I forgive myself that I hsve accepted and allowed myself to feel angry at reality for not intervening with self forgiveness sooner.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to abuse myself by not utilizing my self forgiveness more effectively sooner.

I commit myself to do my self forgiveness each day and to share how it works on my blog so other people can see how self forgiveness can be useful for someone in their direct lives and situation to get better for them.

Day 386- lowest point

 I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear I am doing more damage to myself than I am healing myself of my trauma.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to put additional burden on myself judging myself as an elite who deserves punishment.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that just because someone is not in my immidete environment that I am not a part and influence of their lives as an equal.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fail to direct every environment I encounter as equal to myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself myself keep inventing lowest points for myself because I'm not directing the points within myself that have already built up to devastating consequences.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame myself for other people's suffering instead of taking responsibility for myself and my partner in our immidete environment.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear reaching such a low point that I am simply disregarded as being worthy of life by existence itself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hate walking through my lowest points u continue to create without giving myself a step by step breath by breath solution to be lived and applied whoever I go.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to refuse to accept when rock bottom is simply the lowest point I'm ever willing to go again.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not being able to decide for myself what the next best step for me is.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not honor myself enough to accept today as a fresh start and not a consequence of my past transgressions.

I commit myself to start today as a new day and a new chance to do my best.