Day 229- Walk Self Forgiveness to GUARANTEE Utopia for ALL Life

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Walk with Desteni and walk self forgiveness to guarantee utopia for all of life in the best way possible... but what if there is another way? It will not be the best way possible... I promise...

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being trapped feeling tired but having to push through to do my responsibilities.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being too tired or disorientated to be able to center myself when I have things I need to do and cannot lay down to sleep.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear losing the grip I have now where I seldom cannot orientate myself and find enough energy within myself to do whatever it is I need to do without excessive resistance.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear losing my center of self movement and application.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being tired and agitated and disorientated.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the times and situations where I will probably still feel that way of being tired to a degree.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as being trapped in looking at these situations wheere I am tired within self forgiveness and beliveing there's nothing I can do about stopping myself from repeating these patterns.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel powerless in relationship to bring trapped in an energy cycle without even trying as hard as I can to try to get myself out.

When and as I see myself feeling trapped and forced to repeat the cycle of feeling very tired and not having the energy to do all the things I need to do, I stop, I breathe, i realize I've yet to actually apply myself very much in writing in relationship to the point, so have not yet written and spoken myself out of the situation yet, thusly, I commit myself to investigate and write/speak self forgiveness and self application as much as I can before assuming that I have no choice but to be trapped in a constant fight to keep up my energy level.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel tired when I don't know how to orientate myself very well within a moment.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become tired by not maintain the best self direction I can while doing responsibility that I cannot step away from.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give into tiredness when I have to direct myself in a way that I'm not comfortable or used to.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become tired when I don't know how best to direct myself and am not able to situate within myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give up as tiredness when I am not situated within my self directive.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give into tiredness out of spite as giving up on trying to assert myself when i don't have good direction within myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself give up on trying to direct myself because it's too hard at the time.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give into tiredness when it's hard to direct myself instead of hanging in the best i can as I realize things will reinstate eventually on their own.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that things will get too rough for me before I become reorientated.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear things getting too difficult for me to reorientate when if I can't orientate myself in a moment and I can't change the situation or environment or activity I'm doing to support my orientation then I have to just suffer through and support myself the best I can by not giving up and giving into tiredness as giving up.

When and as I see myself fearing that things will get very difficult and misrable before I become reorientated within myself, I stop, i breathe, I realize my fear will only make things worse, thusly, I commit myself to support myself the best I can when I'm at work or doing other responsibilities and become disorientated, I commit myself to support myself and stand by myself with all my effort and energy and force I have until I am able to reassert myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to suppress so much within myself when I could instead fight myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge fighting with myself as the worst thing I can do when going into emotional possession or feeling possession and then letting it influence me in ways I don't want it to could be avoided if I was willing to fight myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to limit myself to being the same way as taking everything that comes up within myself and suppressing it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not utilize all the different potential programs that exist as exploring different forms of brainwashing within myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge systems as bad because of what I'm walking within myself when If I could trade one system for another system that is more supportive to me walking my process then it becomes a good system in relationship to me walking my process.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not consider utilizing every single thing I have at my disposal to walk my process and become the person I'd like to be within my lifetime.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to box myself in and not utilize all the resources I have within myself as a system to support myself.

I realize I have to use the systems resources, because to walk myself out of what I am I cannot just instantly transform, I have to walk out every single little thing until the rest of my life until the whole world is forgiven by itself, so either willfully or through consequence I have to use the systems within me to my fullest capacity.

So allowing myself to become emotional, exploring different energies, different expressions, different states of mind, different energies, whatever it takes to get insight or knowledge or experience, or whatever it is that I need to tip certain things over, or to support me when I'm in desperation or need support.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not use everything at my disposal to support me to walk my process.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge my general original outlined idea of what walking my process is because it's the best reference I have because I don't have much of a solid reference anymore in my mind, because it's becoming a matter of living and not mental reference as much the way I think of it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to limit myself to my mental reference of what walking my process should be like when this was out of comparison towards others

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not utilize all the resources I have within my mind and everything inside and outside of myself because I'm scare of the consequences of being wrong.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the conquests of being wrong when in this logic I was wrong for several years by flaking away to walk my process alone and without self forgiveness and my life could have been improved but their were no out right consequences, so exploring my mind to use everything within and without myself to it's fullest potential to support myself while still utilizing self forgiveness and not walking my process alone or hidden means that there just can't be any consequences as long as I maintain what I'm doing through consistency.

When and as I see myself fearing utilizing everything I can conceive of within and without myself, I stop, I breathe, I realize that the consequence I fear I've already proven completely misguided through living in a way that should have brought about consequent that I am imagining but didn't for several years by walking my process alone and without self forgiveness, thusly, I commit myself to utilize everything conceivable, within and without myself to fully walk my process to it's most full and best potential.