Day 231- Crushed

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I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be crushed by time.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not having enough time to pace myself out very well.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear going from one responsibility to another as draining me of my energy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel crushed by time when I don't want to rise to the time of what is required of me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel depressed from a lack of stimulation when I have a lot to do and don't have time to have fun.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not take those moments as turning points to decide instead of giving up that I will instead realize I don't need fun to be satisfied with my work and responsibility.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to sit on the fence instead of asserting myself as deciding that I can do my work and responsibility without having a lot of fun stimulation as games and videos.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not being able to fit everything I want to into my day.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear everything crushing me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not assert myself as being able to enjoy what I do.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to let myself sink before not having the energy to do everything I need to do in a day.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to wait for the consequences to become worse before I force myself to manage my time better and assert myself as needing not take on my priorities and limit my side actives.

When and as I see myself fearing the experience of time not being enough, as not having enough rest in-between things I have to do, I stop, I breathe, I realize this is how I plan to do things so can either cooperate or keep dragging myself down with the experience of victimization in being crushed, thusly, I commit myself to take the initiative to stay on top of the things I have to do regardless of what I'd rather or prefer to be doing so that I can continue to establish myself.