Day 235- Redefine Purpose

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I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to seek a purpose of life outside of myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to question what the purpose is of the things I do where I don't see anything I do as having purpose.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize purpose as just a word that I love and create as myself and not something existing outside of myself as life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not living the word purpose in a way that's best for life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear how I'm living the word purpose when I haven't given myself time to define that word and forgive it and give myself a chance to start really living it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define purpose as something that comes to me apposed to something I create for myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not take self responsibility for living the word purpose as giving my life the purpose that I'd best for me as life as one and equal.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that things happen to me and around me for a reason and this is where my purpose would be found.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be lazy and define purpose as befalling me instead of getting my life going and creating purpose as looking for things I can do and become as proposing ideas and things to live and become and pursing those things.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live purpose as forced, where I'll only give myself purpose when I have no choice other wise I would just be lazy and not do anything that gives me purpose.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to let my life fall away into nothingness where I don't care enough to lice and give myself purpose and would rather exist based on whatever occurs around me as my meaning and purpose.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge the word purpose as being work as being tiring.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear living the word purpose with meaning and conviction as making me tired so being bad.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not consider that even though I fear purpose as being tiring I still live purpose as fear.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed muself to livr my life as purpose as the abdication of responsibility for life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live purpose as destroying life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live purpose as giving total control of life to my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to prefer to die then to continue living the word purpose as abuse.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to live purpose as doing whatever I want without question.

When and as I see myself fearing purpose, I stop, I breathe, I realize I'm going to live purpose in a way that either makes life better, or worse, thusly, I commit myself to redefine purpose as being what I give to myself apposed to something that I discover outside of myself.

When and as i see myself wanting to give up on life because my purpose is abuse, I stop, I breathe, I realize this makes things worse because then my purpose becomes to kill which is even worse then to simply abuse, thusly, I commit myself to not give into my mind as trying to take myself out if the picture because of my purpose being currently abusive, and I commit myself to redefine how I live the word purpose as being to put the utmost effort I can in everything I do into supporting life as one and equal in all ways.

So I redefine purpose as the meaning I give to the things I do.

And I redefine how I live purpose as giving my actions the meaning that is best for life, as doing the Best for Life actions.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not give myself the purpose of being nice and supporting life as being nice.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give myself purpose as only looking out for my own interest.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give myself purpose as only caring about myself and judging other's as insignificant to me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be too afraid to stand as purpose as treating other's as one and equal as myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live purpose as avoiding problems.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel so pressured and consonantly on guard that I never was able to slow down and bring the words I am living into question.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not question my purpose when I don't have a chance to slow down and introspect.

When and as I see myself not questioning how I'm living purpose, I stop, I breathe, I realize if I'm going to fast to question what my purpose is then my purpose is not being considered and I'm acting on my mind as impulse and personality, thusly, I commit myself to bring my life into a pace where I can live and create the word purpose as who I am in each breathe where I'm not moving so fast and under so much anxiety and pressure that purpose becomes irrelevant and just giving myself the purpose of survival.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live my purpose as survival without any goals of surviving to make things better.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live my purpose as surviving as a personality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give myself purpose as not having purpose and simply existing as a mind warped creature.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize the power within me to create and define my purpose where even if it wasn't what was best for life I could have given myself some kind of purpose, but now I realize to take everything into consideration of what's best for life by writing self forgiveness in relationship to everything in my life so now I can live the best most optimized version of purpose within myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have let myself fall apart as not giving myself a substantial purpose worth my time.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live purpose as giving into my impulse and feeling.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to justify giving into my feelings and impulses without consideration of consequence because it was my purpose to do so.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to justify living an inadquete version of purpose as acting on impulse and feeling by judging myself as weak and pathetic for having such a weak purpose as giving into my minds whims as impulse and feeling.

When and as I see myself judging myself for how I've lived the word purpose, I stop, I breathe, I realize purpose as being like any other word something I can expand on and change over time, thusly, I commit myself to redefine purpose within how I live the word purpose as being always
open to become better or worse meaning I can never settle for thinking I have the greatest purpose in life because I always run the risk of degrading my purpose and can always seek to heighten my purpose.