Day 225- Supression to Completion

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I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to supress my mind by trying to control what comes through my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not let things run their course within me.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to make things worse by cutting them off and leading to them arising even stronger within me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to reject what I have become within myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to supress what comes up within me while searching for something to come up within me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not being able to maintain letting everything within me come into completion.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to try to control everything within me through supression instead of actually walking things out to completion.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to try to control everything within me throuh supression instead or walking things out completely because I'm scared to face the full extent needed to face things within myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the full extent of the corruption I have become as my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel like a victim in relationship to the corruption of my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to view not seeing the corruption within myself as meaning it doesn't matter.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to limit myself as a i see that facing the corruption within myself is better then suppressing it because suppressing give it more power.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give more power to my corruption by denying it and thusly allowing it to exist where I'm not aware.

When and as I see myself fearing that I cannot constantly and consistently let things run their course within me without suppressing, I stop, I breathe, I realize giving into my fears is making things worse, thusly, I commit myself to not give into my fear of seeing things through, and allow everything to run it's course within myself so I can see where and how to forgive and correct myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not being able to see everything through all at once.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear loose ends returning to haunt me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not being able to walk everything that comes up within me into completion and certain things that I don't see through within myself coming back as consequences.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to expect myself to be able to walk everything out all at once to completion as I realize I cannot do that so shouldn't expect to be able to do that.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not trust myself to see everything to completion within a degree of stability and consistency.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear how where I direct my mind to go will affect what and how much I must see to completion, as I realize now in retrospect I don't direct my mind to go anywhere that it doesn't need to go, where if I find myself day dreaming then I need to face day dreaming and that's where I needed to go, if I find myself obsessing over something that's what I needed to face and see to completion in living, if something has been supressed for a long time and comes up out of the blue, that's good because then I can face my supression without leaving it forgotten, so wherever my mind goes is exactly where it needed to go at all time.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not trust my creative potential to create myself in a moment where I might go somewhere within myself that's new or different or somewhere that could be overwhelming.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not trust my creative potential to go wherever I need to go within myself to face and walk through to completion.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear going to places within myself I'm not ready to let go of.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the discomfort of dwelling over things that I don't see why I haven't been able to let go of yet as I realize there is a reason why.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear seeing things that I know I could specifically work on more to completion as I realize just because I can see something to forgiveness and correction doesn't mean I have the time or priority to do so.

When and as I see myself fearing carving out a balance of seeing things through to completion within me and not being able to just see everything through to completion all at once, I stop, I breathe, I realize that I'm walking a process and cannot do more then space and time can account for, thusly, I commit myself to carve a good balance of seeing things through to completion within myself in each breathe through space and time.