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I feel like I'm right on top of what I've been looking for within myself today.

A way to be as directive as I can in face of everything moving within myself.

But it's still convoluted.

It's like I need more time to see if things stick or not.

A platform from which I can build my process and my life upon.

There are some adjustments to make.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my new method for directing myself falling in on itself like ever other time.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that means of directing myself are so important to figure out when they just come in hand with self forgiveness and correction.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear maintaining my new means of direction as I realize my new means of directing myself does not require me to do anything, but to breathe and support my body within that and be comfortable.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not embrace the way that things move within me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fight against everything moving within me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fight against my own thoughts and thinking.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not work with everything moving within me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not trust myself to be able to move and live in a way where I'm not torn by everything moving within me and am consistently walking all of the movement within myself out because of all the time I found that there was nothing I could do about all the movement within myself because I wasn't using self forgiveness and just my own mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not go with the flow within myself as I realize if there is already so much moving within me that there is nothing I can do about it then I might as well just go with it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to obsess over everything moving within me instead of just letting it go and do it's thing on a surface level while I focus on working on the deeper
layers of myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to try to control every single little thing within myself instead of pursuing the deeper more meaningful parts of my construction.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear conscience still having to go through the same conflicts and resistance as ever, as I realize my new method of directing myself is the best way to support me with conflict and resistance.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not trust myself when I see that I could finally have found the platform to live the rest of my life upon.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to refuse to admit that I might have finally found a means of directing myself that will actually work.

When and as I see myself fearing that I have finally found a means of directing myself that will stand the test of time, I stop, I breathe, I realize if it flops or not all I have to do is keep writing my self forgiveness and correction and with time through my process different things will open up to allow me to direct my life in different ways, thusly, i commit myself to trust myself to be able to open up new doors for myself when I need to.

I commit myself to trust myself to construct my life and create the direction I'd like to have for myself.