Day 420- Star part 7

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"a conventional or stylized representation of a star, typically one having five or more points."

I realized today that I actually have a star on my back. 

It's funny in writing about the star for a few days that it's only occurring to me that I have a star tattoo. 

I was driving and looking at the carl's jr restaurant which advertises itself with a logo of a smiling star. 

I have the Baphomet sigil on my back which is the upside down version of the regular conventional Carl's Jr logo.

There was a specific reason I got this tattoo of the satanic star

I got the Satanic upside down star during a time where I was having severe revenge of the ego, and was having some mental issues/mental distortions. 

I saw the Satanic star two times. Which is not a usual thing for me to physically see something from my mind projected on the physical/ potentially see something very deep that is not the normal things you see with your eyeballs.

I saw the star right before I was becoming a Techno Tutor distributor as someone was talking to me on the phone relating to becoming a distributor, and at the time I experienced it like they were showing me a part of myself, that they were showing me this part of myself which were represented in the satanic star, and then another expression of myself which was really nice and I liked, I didn't like the expression that I saw from the satanic star.

I saw the Satanic star, a second time, where I from the first time I saw it, saw that I was being warned from a part of myself not to go that direction or that there were two different courses of which I could go in my life and that one was this not great direction and the other was really great. Through many decisions I made and due to instability I was struggling with in my mind I went down a path of a lot of abuse and violence and it was during a violent altercation with my ex wife that I saw this star more vivid than ever surrounding her head like an aura, and I saw this physically with my eyes. 

So, after seeing it the second time over around close to a couple years even from seeing it the first time, I remembered seeing it and the warning and realized that I had chose the path of what this symbol within me represent.

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So, time to clean it up.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not consider that going down the path that I did, because it happened, showed that the path in life which the satanic star represent was the path that I was always going to take as it was always within me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to panic when seeing that this evil was within me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have walked a path of evil when I wish that I had chose the path which was not represented by this symbol of the inverted star but a path that was more like a cool soothing ocean.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hate myself for walking a path of evil where I was abusive and being abused in a partnership with my ex wife.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have made ideas and projections about this path that I have walked and the tattoo that I have got to cement the symbol and the memories so that they are not forgotten.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not forgive myself for the evil that I have embodied and realized has been in myself for an unknown amount of time.

Day 420, it's funny that weed played a big role in the path of evil, the path of satanic that I have walked as abuse of myself and my partner and using marijuana creating instability in my mind body being relationship. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to walk a path of evil by smoking marijuana.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to walk a satanic path due to smoking marijuana.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have judged the satanic panic and the relationship to marijuana as a joke or as stupid and yet I have seen how big a role Marijuana played in my disruption from process from success in life and being my best self. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not utilize my star of Satan tattoo as a point of reference as a point of correction as a point of reminder of where I have been and the worst of myself I have seen and why self forgiveness is and always will be required of me to walk every day. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have not even considered that the sigil of Baphomet is actually a star and I saw who I am as birthing myself as the star of Satan as the star of evil, as the star of my own abuse and separation and annihilation.

When and as I see myself fearing the sigil of Baphomet and remembering my abuse and my evil that I endured at the hands of others and acted upon directly myself, I stop, I breathe, I realize that I have this inverted star on my back as a reminder so that I always come back to process and self forgiveness and changing myself in this lifetime as I have seen without a doubt the deepest depravity of abuse that I have walked as victim and as perpetrator in this life, thus, I commit myself to look at my tattoo of the inverted star on my back as a reminder and to bring everything back to process as I have sealed on my back the absolute wickedness of the mind as what I have created and allowed as consciousness as separation as abuse as evil.

I commit myself to forgive myself and correct myself of the evil I have lived in this lifetime.