Day 425- Star part 12, alcohol

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Tonight I was talking to X. He was drinking some alcohol. Although I recommended to him that it was not best to do that. 

He wanted to share his experiences and everything he had done so far for his life and process over the course of the year with me.

In this instance I decided to have the call with X and be of support for him celebrating his year and what he accomplished even if we both recognized that drinking alcohol in a way diminished what he had done and created through the year.

In this instance I made accommodations to speak with X where I otherwise would not like to be walking with someone who has ingested alcohol since I do not like alcohol on principle. 

X has been so active in using his TT writing his self forgiveness and reading heavens journey and creations journey that I am finding as much as drinking alcohol is step back, he has made great strides and steps forward over this year.

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One thing that I noticed about X and their expression during our conversations over the video chat, was that normally X had quite a glow about them. 

But that in contrast to that normal appearance I could see that X did not have the same glow that they normally do while intoxicated. 

I had written about redefining star previously in regards to women. 

In this instance I noted that X usually is quite the star, not just in their glow of their expression, but who they are as a musician and in their living creation of themselves in the system. 

It was sad to see X's glow being diminished while they were drinking alcohol.

I will take this back to myself and relate it to instances where I have drank alcohol in the past.

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I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to destroy my glow by drinking alcohol.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to cause myself to erupt internally destroying my ability to effectively shine and create outwards when I drink alcohol.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to kill my star when I have consumed alcohol.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make dramatic unnecessary consequences for myself when i have consumed alcohol.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to dull myself and my expression and my capacity to live to best potential when I have consumed alcohol.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge alcohol with spite and hatred instead of self honestly walking out the problem with alcohol as a substance as how it affects the physical substance without judging it through mental projections of right or wrong.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to drink alcohol to become a star and to say things and be fun with friends where I otherwise in the past had found myself isolated in myself and using alcohol to build connection as expressing what would otherwise be inhibited.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to require alcohol to have a fun time and create enjoyment.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to dimmish my process of becoming a star when I have consumed alcohol.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use alcohol to suppress myself.

When and as I see myself ever again desire to drink alcohol, I stop, I breathe, I realize that in every way as I want to create myself as a star in this lifetime and live the word star, that alcohol will in every way do the opposite as turn me into a black hole preventing me from being born as a star, thus, I commit myself to never drink alcohol for the rest of my life. 

I commit myself to not tolerate alcohol consumption in others.

I commit myself to end alcohol abuse in the system.