Monday, December 4, 2017

Day- 353- Catfish

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I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear getting catfished on the internet. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear people messing with me on the internet with fake profiles. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge tricking someone on the internet as being something that puts you in a position of blame. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to refuse to humble myself to getting fooled by someone on the internet. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear what I thought was real that I was expereinving talking to someone on the internet was all fake. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel annoyed that someone would mess with me on the internet for not good reason. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel ashamed for someone who would catfish me on the internet. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge someone who would catfish me on the internet as less then myself. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel angry I can relate to the nerve of messing with other people out of selfishenss in myself. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that the fantasy I was presented through someone on the internet was actually never real. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear having to continue with my life in a much harsher reality then the nice reality I was presneted thorugh the internet. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame someone else on the internet when I built up my own fantasies assuming I'd be able to actualize them at some point without considering my accountability to fantasy. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear getting catfished on the internet being a rude wake up to what reality really is. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel like getting catfished was a big deal when it didn't affect me in any way but positivey helping me to face myself in a new way. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that i"m beyond getting catfished on the internet. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe i'm too clever to be fooled by someone on the internet. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel confused that the person on the internet seemed to be real and came at the good time for me. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel depressed discoering that the person on the itnernet was not who they appeared to be. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel sad that I thought I could have the relationship I always wanted but it was not a real person. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not knowing when such an oppritunity for myself will ever come again to be in the relationship I'd like to have with someone else. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel depressed having to go back to working up my relationship with myself alone. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to emotionally attach myself to the fantasy of being in relationship with another person. 

WHen and as I see myself feeling depressed about getting catfished on the internet by a fake profile, I stop, I breathe, I realize that reacting to a situation doeesn't mean that things are actually bad or hopeless but that I'm not directing myself and creating myself from within the situation to make the best of things due to instead reacting, thus, I commit myself to breathe, and to keep working on my self growth in process regarldess of if people on the internet are who they say they are or not. 

I commit myself to stop depending my development on being in a great relationship with someone else.