Day 407- Study

 I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not study the Desteni materials. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge and resent being a student due to my relationship to school.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not study how to be successful. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not study those who have come before me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be arrogant and egotistical in not studying and not applying myself to research and implement the knowledge and understanding of others. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not study what others have gone out of their way to suffer and challenge and conquer to bring forward to all to share in books, recordings, ect. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to look at studying the way I look at school as studying for a test where the goal is to get done with a test and be done and forget it all and it's all a waste of time and effort. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not make my very purpose to study and be a student and always be learning and applying what I learn as my purpose to learn what really it means to be my best and to give what is best in each moment. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel stressed out in relationship to studying again as if there is a test anymore as if I am in school anymore and need to study for a test to pass the test and be deemed ready to move on to the next test and then next grade and then get a paper at the end and forget everything that I learnt and read entirely. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make my life more difficult due to not studying others and so isolating without gaining the insight of others and so now having to work very hard and extensive hours because I did not study and discover how to make and generate money as some others have who have been outspoken whom I could have studied. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not study those who have walked process and shared their process in either blogs and in articles and in general writing and discussion where I have again in arrogance desired and sought to make a name for myself and my ego and be better and not need to stand together and so study and learn from another. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not studying in believing I am special that I have a special unique process beyond what anyone can relate to and in doing and believing so made my life more difficult due to having to face undue consequences and spend additional time that could have been streamlined through effective studying. 

I redefine to study as to spend time reviewing and downloading information from others through reading and listening to their words to serve me in then taking their experiences into my own life and living to save me the trouble of further conflict and suffering and allow me to have more to give to others through streamlining then my process and life for myself and for then everyone equally. 

I commit myself to study everyday. 

I commit myself to study the Journey to life blogs. 

I commit myself to study the Desteni material. 

I commit myself to study books. 

I commit myself to study others who have had success in business. 

When and as I see myself feeling stressed out in relationship to studying and wanting to go instead to play a game or watch an entertaining video, I stop, I breathe, I realize that I must correct my relationship to studying and learning which I shut down in relationship to school, and show to myself that that time is over that I am redefining what it means to grow and learn and study for myself and thus my daughter and for all that I meet in my life, thus, I commit myself to schedule times everyday to study the Desteni material, read books, read the blogs, study the words of those who are successful in business and in sales.