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My most likely longest series I have written has been regarding the point of the star.
I initially had intended to write this series as a secret surprise for a friend.
I revealed the secret to them, which was not supposed to take place for an entire year.
So, now my secret project is blown, and it has been insisted that now more than ever that I should continue my work on the star project.
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The great beyond.
The greatest fantasy.
I found this picture above by searching star fantasy on google, then I found out it was AI generated, haha.
Pivoting from my star secret being revealed, this specific point arising of the star fantasy is actually where the word star and my relationship to it is actually the most important.
It is through the word star that I actually can see back into my past, where my mind consciousness had the greatest control over me.
Because of images like the one I added onto this page of a beautiful galaxy and fantasy planets and environment.
Fantasy had me by the balls when I was young. Fantasy was the reason for existing. But, fantasy only really had that punch and could even seem remotely real or tangible through pictures.
Fantasy of sci fi and space and the wonder of the galaxy, but all only really known through pictures on a computer screen.
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I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create huge eruptive reactions towards fantasy pictures of the galaxy and space and strs.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have given up all right to life to live as a fantasy projected out into outer space in pictures of the fantasy of unknown thriving alive planets and stars in pictures drawn by people.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have turn the stars into a point of fantasy of great reaction and energy in my mind.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have corrupted my relation to the stars and galaxies that are really out there by making them into fantasy in my mind through media and movies and fantastical pictures and images.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have not considered life as value as one and equal when I as a young child was ready to give up everything of myself to have this experience of myself out in the stars in these pictures I would find of planets and stars exaggerated in art online.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have killed off the part of myself that were capable of actually creating a life of fantasy for all living beings to go to the stars where I wanted to be in the stars just in my mind just in my own secret escape.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have traded my childhood to consciousness fantasy leaving me in a state of projection way out in the stars and not actually living and facing reality.
When and as I see myself looking at a fantasy picture of stars, or galaxies, or science fiction images, and going into a longing and a deep reaction and wanting it to be real more than anything else, I stop, I breathe, I realize that when I was a young person a part of me know something was wrong and something was missing on a very deep level and so I corrected this off and wrongness through consciousness and through projecting onto images I was finding on the internet, and now I realize that I was just creating friction between two points, as the point of dullness and emptiness to the lives we live in this system, contracted with great images and reactions in the mind as the high to contract the low, thus, I commit myself to live in-between as where reality exist not as a polarity, and I commit myself to create a life for all on earth best that we could one day go to the stars together as all of life equally and not just for a few people with money to escape into the idea of stars as fantasy.
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