Day 354- New Problems

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I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge my life as better now because I have 'better' problems then in the past.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge my new issues in life as easier to adress then my past issues in life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as being in a better position to deal with my problems I have now then how I was with my problems in the past.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge my life as better now because I expereince less intense problems in life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to build myself up to be doing so great and able to handle so much more without actually looking into how I handle things now.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as not having changed at all and simply not having the same problems I had externally from the past.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear simply supressing the impact of my old problems and replacing them with new problems which I'm equally numb and desensatised to.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear simply being desensatied to things more and simply not caring or willing to adress things as much.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as not deserving to have fewer issues in my life then in the past.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as not having worked and applied myself hard eough to have been able to move past my old problems and have new problems which aren't as intense.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear old problems in myself reappearing and having to start all over from scratch in relationship to them if they do come back up in a more or equal powerful intensity as in the past.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear simply tricking myself to believing that I have everything under control in my life now.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to race forward and gain more stability and footing in my life so I can squash out my older issues which have brought me the most suffering all at once to no longer have to deal with or assossiate with them.

When and as I see myself judging myself or talking myself up as being so much better then any other time in my life, I stop, I breathe, I realize it's not a matter of convincing myself that all is well and down hill from here but simply living and applying in each breathe taht which has supposebly brought me to the position I seem to see myself in, thus, I commit myself to keep applying myself as I am as how I've gotten to a position where I can do more with less consquences to my wellness and health.